i keep having these very vivid dreams. i dont like them. they have all been very emotional. i thought you sleep for relief. for escape. for rest. to wake up with my heart beating and thinking that my grandpa is still alive and dying all over again is not any of those things. i dont even like the really good dreams.. waking up and thinking that things are so much better than reality. the only dreams that i like are the crazy, nonsensical ones.....the ones with rollercoasters that lead to other parts of dreams that lead to different beautiful colors i've never seen before.
