tiny hands reaching for something fragile that is a little to far from her grasp. i feel like a lost child. in this limbo between cluelessness and instinct. my heart aches. a physical pain in my chest. understanding doesn't come with the territory of making things easier. my life is much like a coldplay song. sounding a little unrealistic, but the depth of sadness feels very real. i need happiness to seep through this despair soon...

Homesick at home. i dont know where i am supposed to be. everytime i leave my family i get heartsick and cry most of the way home. when i get home i automatically want to leave. but when i do i have no destination. this sadness could kill me soon if i let it. i dont get sad too often, but when i do its deep and it hurts. like -14 degree wind blowing through your body.