sometimes i feel completely ugly. the things inside change my perspective.today. this terrible feeling of feeling dirty. feeling like the edges of my being were broken and i couldnt stop feeling bruised and uneasy. i still feel it. needing to make things right but not knowing how or what or when or where. i could see the shame in your eyes but i didnt want to show you disappointment in mine. and the light headache and the stomach filled with nothing, water, and things of no good. i am no good at what i love to do the most. i really dont think so today. i feel like im barely ok at the things i love but mostly terrible.
today needs to end or i just need to stop this mind from digging.
