re·sil·ience:
–noun
1. the power or ability to return to the original form, position, etc., after being bent, compressed, or stretched; elasticity.
2. ability to recover readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like; buoyancy.
they have nothing left to lose.
they have so much more inside of them than i could ever even imagine myself having.
i have everything to lose.
yet i am scared of losing what i have, when the fear they have... is for their life to be extinguished.
how selfish i am. and how pathetic i feel to think how little i have really done with my time.
i am still here in this place. infront of this computer. online. with warm socks covering my feet and a hoodie keeping me warm, a home.
i want to go. if nothing else, to make a friend and to hold a child's hand in a place where there is desperation for help. where there is a need to be filled. a stomach to be fed.
i want to live my life for someone else.
im so sick of living here for me, myself, and i.
im absolutely ready to do something. i dont care if it is one life. or 10.
i dont want to go to have a life changing experience for myself.
i want to go to help, to love, to live for someone else's heart to keep beating.
or more so BEEPING.
