clenching my jaws togther to keep the tears from seeping out
this voice that is singing in the background isnt helping
and the fact that i havent seen her or heard from her in a long while
hurts my heart more than i care to realize every now and then.
i miss company that knows me in and out.
very few people know me that well anymore...
depression... is a very sad thing... that i dont know how to deal with or help and i dont know how to feel.
i am sad.
i am sad for her. i dont know how to help.

the tears cant be help back anymore.... and as much as i hate it... i love feeling something. anything at all.


i miss you more than you will know....................