not knowing is my default answer to everything.
and yesterday was a terrible day.
melting down it public,
is it overwhelming? or is it
a sense of relief that even the most
random, common, uncaring person
would care for a slight moment
about the tears that you cry.
tuesday is the day.
i am cutting off my past through a simple act.
'i wont ever let you walk out my door'
but i dont really know about that anymore.
words of honesty dont always do the trick
but simple words of accepting and keep truckin',
they stick to me like paste
and i am working towards that goal.
its just hard to not do it out of anger or bitterness...
but just to accept and move on.
new albums and a piece of plastic that is way too easy to use.
4 weeks from today i will have a friend living close
in physical form rather than just close in the heart.
my eyes are full of sleep again,
but the creativity that i feel in my blood today..
i dont want to pass without escaping through my fingers.
sometimes. i cant explain why i am sad. i just am.
yesterday was a terrible day.
but today was better, and i can live without you if i have to.
